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Wed. Sept. 18: Saturn Goes Direct

September 18, 2019

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Wednesday, September 18, 2019
Waning Moon
Pluto Retrograde
SATURN DIRECT TODAY
Neptune Retrograde
Uranus Retrograde

Saturn is set to go direct today, but what does that mean?

Different things for all of us, depending on our charts.

Saturn is a planet of life lessons. For me, when it is in retrograde, things are up in the air, and any obstacle I didn’t appropriately deal with in the previous Saturn retrograde cycle comes back and kicks me in the ass. I’m still struggling in my second Saturn Return as well, so the past few months, I’ve felt pretty pounded.

Heap the other retrogrades on top of that, and to say I need a nap is an understatement.

Jupiter going direct in August helped lift some of that pressure. When Jupiter is direct, homelife and work life tend to be on a more even keel, and I’d really like that. With both Jupiter and Saturn retrograde, the changes I know I have to make have been blocked. Everything is harder.

It eased a bit when Jupiter went direct, although what I thought I was working toward turned out to take a different turn. Which is okay. I’m redefining what I want and need out of my work.

With Saturn going direct today, I hope some more obstacles will be removed to the progress I want and need to make in the next few months. Pluto retrograde is usually a positive for me (revelations of what’s hidden). Neptune retrograde is slowing down my creative energy, but I’m dealing with it. Uranus retrograde also makes everything slower and harder, too, as far as projects. So, this stack of retrogrades has made everything I need to do take ten times longer and make me work ten times harder.

The positive in this is that when I hit obstacles in this stack, it makes me re-evaluate. Some of the directions I thought I wanted to go in spring are proving to be the wrong choice for me, some decisions were made out of fear and panic rather than weighing the options and the needs. The obstacles are giving me the chance to change direction before I get mired.

But the level of exhaustion and self-doubt and despair it causes at times make this a difficult transition.

Breaking big projects down into smaller tasks, while still keeping an eye on the long term are helpful.

One of these days, I’ll stop being so exhausted, and then I can really get into gear.

Let’s hope the forced time into inner work pays off when it’s time to act.

How does Saturn Retrograde affect you? When it goes direct, what shifts for you? I’d love to hear in the comments.

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Sat. Sept. 14, 2019: Full Moon

September 14, 2019

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Saturday, September 14, 2019
Full Moon
Pluto Retrograde
Saturn Retrograde
Neptune Retrograde
Uranus Retrograde

The last couple of weeks have been difficult, to say the least. We lost our beloved rescue cat Lucy, to an inoperable liver tumor. She was only with us for 13 months.

I would not trade a minute that we had with her. She was a joyful, sweet soul.

But the anger mingled with the grief cannot be ignored.

I suspect the person who rehomed her knew she was sick, and didn’t tell us. That makes me angry. The vet never caught it until it was too late. That makes me angry.

It also brings up the question: is anyone actually out there and do they listen?

One of the reasons I dislike the Big Three religions so much is that “faith” means keep believing, keep working, keep hoping even if you get nothing in return.

I need a spiritual path with more reciprocity.

It gives me a lot to think about, with few answers. But at least I’m asking the questions.

What has this full moon brought up for you?

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Fri. Aug. 30, 2019: New Moon Plans

August 30, 2019

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Friday, August 30, 2019
New Moon
Pluto Retrograde
Saturn Retrograde
Neptune Retrograde
Uranus Retrograde
Sunny and pleasant

How was your experience last night?

Could you feel the moment when you released your block? Could you sense it shattering or moving away, or sinking into the earth? What was that experience like for you?

Did it help you sleep?

Or did it give you a sense of loss?

There’s nothing wrong with feeling the absence of a block, even if it prevented you from making progress. It was a part of you. It’s not there any more. You’ve made room for something better, but there’s still an emptiness. A lightness, I hope, a sense of relief and anticipation.

Today, take some time to think about what you want in this new cycle. You don’t have to make an immediate decision. You can even decide to take an entire cycle off and not make a decision.

You’ve made room. Enjoy the emotional space.

Take your time to decide what you want to do to improve your life.

If you decide to stay fallow this cycle, take a few minutes to acknowledge that every day and enjoy the emotional space.

If you decide on something specific, start working out a few steps to take between now and the full moon to get things going.

We will reconvene on the full moon (September 14) to see how we’re doing.

In the meantime, enjoy the journey.

 

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Thurs. Aug. 29, 2019: Dark Moon Release

August 29, 2019

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Thursday, August 29, 2019
Dark Moon
Pluto Retrograde
Saturn Retrograde
Neptune Retrograde
Uranus Retrograde
Rainy and warm

The 2020 Spell-a-Day Almanacs have shipped. I just turned in an article for the 2021 Witches’ Companion. So I thought it should get back to posting on the blog, when and where appropriate.

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Dark Moon. It’s a time of low light, at least as far as the moon is concerned. But it’s also a day of huge power as far as releasing what we no longer need, pushing or cutting away what no longer works.

The day before the dark moon is my lowest energy day of the month. It’s hard to do anything, to focus on anything.

But the dark moon itself feels powerful. I am motivated to clean, both on physical and emotional levels, in preparation for a new cycle.

How will I deal with that today?

Tonight, in my before-bed meditation, I won’t even light candles. I will sit in the dark. I will release something specific (that I cannot discuss publicly) that is blocking me from moving forward the way I need to. I will push it from my life so that tomorrow, I can make a fresh start.

There are plenty of cutting away rituals and separation rituals. Over time, I am sure we will discuss them. But tonight, on this particular night, I want a quiet separation, not something dramatic.

Remember, even when you release energy, you should still ground before and after. Grounding helps keep you steady, and prevents stuck energy from giving you dis-ease.

Tonight, I will sit.

Tonight, I will follow my breath.

Tonight, I will relax into the release.

 

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Ostara 2018

March 20, 2018

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Tues. March 20, 2018
Waxing Moon

In spite of the constant onslaught of storms, today is the Spring Equinox, otherwise known as Ostara.

A day for rebirth; in the Northern Hemisphere, the beginning of Spring (hopefully).

Not so here, on Cape Cod in a physical sense.

However, we have more daylight (always a good thing, especially during power outages). The cats are losing their winter coats. They’re also more playful and interested in what’s going on outside.

The bunnies are around (they took refuge on the deck in the bad weather). The squirrels are busy finding the last of the nuts they buried, and rearranging the tulip bulbs. If past years are any indication, the tulip arrangements will be lovely, albeit in odd places.

It’s time, again, for the wheel to turn and for there to be positive change.

Personally, the last year and change have been difficult. I suspect I’m in my Saturn Return again (it was early the first time). I have a lot of obstacles to surmount in the coming months, but I feel more optimistic about them than I have lately.

The writing is going well (most days), the websites have moved hosts and most of them are live. Cerridwen’s Cottage is up on the new host, with its new design, although not all of the content has been loaded yet. I’m keeping up my daily yoga and meditation practices, and my seasonal alignments. I’m more aware of the shifts in light and temperature and all the rest, more in rhythm with it. Intentionally so.

There is plenty that still needs to shift, that needs a bit of a push so that it shifts in the way I want and need it to do, rather than just shifting to shift, and staying stagnant.

I am NOT looking forward to Mercury Retrograde starting in two days. But I hope my coping skills have grown since last time. I hope that, by being careful and thoughtful, I can face the M.R. obstacles with more grace.

I will plant today, lettuce and tomato seeds, and perhaps some pumpkins. I will plant and nurture, both inner and outer worlds.

Blessed Equinox!

May you have a beautiful day to dawn a beautiful cycle.

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Thurs. Dec. 21, 2017: Winter Solstice

December 21, 2017

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Thurs. Dec. 21, 2017
Waxing Moon
Uranus Retrograde
Mercury Retrograde
Sunny and cold
Winter Solstice

Winter Solstice is one of my favorite holidays, especially now that I live in a house and have a fire place.

I observe a tradition that the group with whom I worked in New York City observed – we let the sun set completely on Solstice, without turning on any lights, until it’s completely dark. Then, we light the Needfire first (here, it is the fireplace; in New York City, if outside, it was the Sacred Hibachi, or, if inside, the candles floating in the cauldron). We speak a blessing about the return of the light, and then we go around and light all the other candles, put on the tree, etc. throughout the house.

It’s lovely, quiet, and, truly, magical.

I like to joke that I celebrate everything from the end of October through the 6th of January. I have many happy memories of St. Nicholas Day, and Christmas, and all the rest. The fact that I mark Solstice doesn’t negate those good memories, and I build on them.

I wish you blessings and abundance and all that is good.

Have a wonderful holiday.

There will be a new full moon meditation on Cerridwen’s Cottage for January 1, our next full moon.

Blessings and peace.

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Tues. Dec. 5, 2017: St. Nicholas Day

December 5, 2017

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Actually, St. Nicholas DAY is tomorrow. Tonight is the night — the night where we put out our shoes, and tomorrow morning, discover them filled with treats. Before you say “ewww” — sometimes there are special shoes (I have actual wooden shoes bought in Volendam, Netherlands), or, at the very least, the treats come in little bags. So, no, they’re not all sweaty and gross.

St. Nicholas Day is a family tradition that I’ve chosen to keep and celebrate in my own life, even thought I’m not much on saints and what they represent in organized religion. It’s something my family celebrated ever since I can remember, something my parents celebrated when they grew up in Europe.

Nikolaos was actually a Greek bishop in Myra, Turkey, and buried in San Nicola, Bari, Italy. He was called “The Wonderworker” and known for helping the needy.

The whole “filling stockings” came about as the legend of a poor man with three daughters who hung their stockings by the fire. St. Nicholas dropped a bag of gold down the chimney and it landed in a stocking, providing the dowries for marriage. From then on, any gift from an unknown giver was attributed to this bishop. He was also known at the patron saint of children and sailors.

As a living man, he was exiled from Turkey by the Emperor. In 1087, his bones were stolen by Italian sailors and reburied in the church bearing his name in Italy.

It’s likely sailors took the legends with them when they returned home, and that’s how the stories spread through Europe. In some traditions, Sinterklaas (as he’s known in the Netherlands) has a sidekick, the dark-skinned “Black Peter” helping him deliver toys, candy, and oranges to those deemed “good.” And coal to those deemed “bad.” Remember, in those days, oranges were rare in many parts of the world, and sailors depended on them to stave off scurvy. Another indication that sailors contributed to the evolving legends.

That evolved further into travelling by sleigh, and horses transformed into reindeer who then began to fly. The UK started calling him “Father Christmas” and moving his gift-giving to later in December.

There are dozens of conflicting legends from which to choose. It’s fun to read an array of them to see where they differ, what’s similar, and how they are a snapshot of what was needed by the people of the time.

Our family celebrates St. Nicholas and Santa Claus as two different figures. St. Nicholas comes on the night of December 5th and fills the shoe left out for him. Santa Claus (who I consider the personification of the Spirit of Giving), delivers the big stuff on the night of the 24th.

Both figures are a reminder that there is still kindness in the world, how it is important for each of us to personify the Spirit of Giving whenever we can, and that we need to remember to give thanks.

Next post will be for the Winter Solstice, December 21.

Blessings!